Marijuana

I did say I use marijuana, and that if I had it, it would be a nice replacement for Abilify. And yes, I have it. But I need it legalized because buying it right now is extremely difficult for me. My access to sources has been very inconsistent for the past 3 years because I'm simply bad at dealing with dealers. Look for it on the streets and I get burnt by shady, scamming trash. Look for it in higher society and get ignored for seeming like a narc.

A nice headshop where the god damn customer is always right would be a breath of fresh air.

As of now, I'm barely getting by, living off of a small stash that I've kept alive since I started using. If marijuana was as easy to get as DXM, I'd probably back off from using DXM every 2-3 days to maybe once a week, who knows.

Maybe I should ditch this country for a career of selling weed in The Netherlands. Should I bother with college...?

Legalization

How would legalizing drugs affect me? I'd have a wider range of drugs to pick from. What I need is my opiate receptors hit, and DXM does that. But that's not all it hits (so I get a few annoying / life threatening side effects). Pure opiates like oxycodone or hydrocodone would be ideal.

Yeah, it's simple, isn't it? I need drugs to help me feel good because my brain makes me feel shitty. I've tried many other methods and drugs look like the last option.

Who's in my way? Conservative religious assholes who think you have to "earn" happiness. The ones who think "pleasure" is a dirty word. Well, let me tell you something, you close-minded, delusional motherfuckers. I've been through shit. I deserve your god damn heaven. The bible doesn't say shit about drugs, so what's your problem with them?

What else?

I vaporize marijuana also, usually combining it with DXM to get a really nice buzz. Legalize that, and it just might be a replacement for Abilify. I remember reading somewhere that Cannabidiol acts like an antipsychotic.

Now what do I do? Wait for that Barack Obama guy to read my blog? Then he'll give me some Supplemental Security Income so I can stay away from the work force and live a happy life?

No, drugs should be legalized. This would lower crime, help end racism, increase human spirituality (fuck religion), shut down the bullshit pharmacy industry, and free me from the cage that is my mind. I'm sure there's more...

Intro

Yep, I'm psychologically addicted to DXM (dextromethorphan), but I'm doing well in college. I use it to self-medicate for Depression, Social Anxiety, Asperger's Syndrome, and my recent diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder.

It definitely isn't the best way to medicate myself, but I don't have many other options. I'm already on Prozac, which helps a lot, but being a person who wants a completely happy life, it just isn't enough. Abilify is being offered to me by a very good psychiatrist, but I really don't like it's side effect profile (even compared to DXM's).

Now, the point of this blog is to show how my life would be better if all drugs were legalized.

Can't imagine that? Stay tuned.