Well, it's been a while since I've only been on DXM. It was a steady habit to add marijuana to the experience I guess.
Anyway, it seems like your sense of humor is a difficult thing to balance when you're concentrating on a bunch of other things. I've been able to let off steam by acting completely crazy around my parents. Since I can't do that much now, I have to find it somewhere else. Sounds like the definition of growing up to me. Gettin' some friends insteada your parents.
Yeah...friends. Social anxiety makes that area pretty nasty.
Maybe this has something to do with me "smiling a lot". I'm probably suppressing my sense of humor.